i dont know. i dont know. i dont know. okay. i do know. i know so much that it doesnt hurt. just read it with my own eyes. its what i needed. i know. while a good pot of coffee is liberating i cant live on it. i need some water and some vitamins and some vegetables and some medicine. i dont like medicine. what i know is that someone what i need isnt what i thought i wanted. sometimes what i want isnt what i need. i dont need you. i dont want you either. i just like your smell. and the way you talk and walk. i like you. i really do. but. your not what i need. i have this best friend and she is right. you dont see. see see see see. you saw me at the sea. for a minute. but like a wave your sight has come and gone. youll see me again someday. but it will be too late. you'll never know. timing is everything. and we dont set that up. so thank you. for teaching me. and for seeing me. if only for a minute. because you proved that it can be done. even with all my walls and depth that i hide behind.