not of this world.

that feeling i get in the pit of my stomach i have come to realize is not the pit of my stomach. it is me. im that feeling. thats me hurting. and this body this flesh that im stuck in it doesnt know what to do when IM hurting. when me the soul that is stuck inside the flesh hurts. thats that feeling. its real pain. pain that causes the heart to beat fast and liquid to fall out of the eyes. its the pain that we cant describe to anyone. not even to ourselves. so deep and so real. so not of this world. thats what it is. not of this world. im not of this world. and thats why i have to come inside this flesh. inside this body to be here. because i am a soul. a soul. solely. i am not of this world. of worldly things. i long for a higher calling. a higher purpose. a higher God is mine. not idols of this world. my body is of this world though. IT desires what I do not desire. IT wants what I do not want. IT is weak but I am strong. IT causes me to slip. but I AM STRONGER. that is my truth. this is my war that is raging. not a war with my neighbors but a war with my body. and I will win. I will defeat this flesh. IT is weak. I AM STRONG.