last night i was brushing my teeth and i was having a conversation with you in my head. and one of us said. " the paths we choose to take arent neccessarily divine but the opportunities are." im not sure if i believe it. but one of us said it. and so we will talk. for real. and something will be said. and im not sure. and that means something. hmmm. interesting. i dont know why im typing here. i got a new blog. ive been typing there mostly. and more than that ive been writing. in my own handwriting. and its been four weeks now. five for you. and well. here we are. im here and youre there and we arent anywhere. sometimes its strange how things play out. and. sad. how they dont. but im here. living on quotes and coffee. and its nice. but im dependent. on them. if not you. and thats wrong and not right. but its therapeutic. but im missing it. the big. you know. i know you know. and they all know. i know it too. and im feeling it anymore. yes that isnt poor grammar on accident. its poor on purpose. my light bulb broke. got broke. broken. now theres no light. that i like. but lifes not like that. or. maybe then again. it is. it always is. like that. we choose our darkness. we choose our lightness. our likeness. in whos likeness. are we living in. we as in us. in the same sentences. yes. are we right. we might be wrong. and the topic may change but the big idea will not. not in these blogs. theres an underscore. undertow. underline. underlying. thing. some. here. and im thinking over the things that you said. and he said. and she said. and He said. says. saying. say. and so here we are. so much to say. and i miss you. whoever that is. whoever you are. i miss you. so much. i hope you like avocados and coffee. and cheese cubes. and kettle corn. and so. maybe. this. is it. the end of the line. but i did learn once and that lines never end. never ever never never never. maybe this isnt a line. i know its not a circle. maybe its a point A to point B kind of thing. maybe. im not sure. but there was definitelyt some curvature. still is. hills and valleys kind of things some. i know you miss something about me. i hope you miss me too. maybe you dont. maybe you do. maybe. there is one thing some i know for sure. and it is this. people. are so beautiful. everyone of them. and no one is just another person. ever. never. no one is just anything. more than that. humanity is beautiful and precious and something to hold on to. to hold eachother up. yes. we need to. we want to. and not trusting eachother. is not trusting the father. i know that. He has it all. He does. i know He does. and so goodbye worries. goodbye fears. though at times they may creep. i pray that these words i speak. are not my own. (speak) thats beautiful. beautifully contained. like a bird in a cage. are the parenthesis your cage. (speech)less. i am sometimes. because of what you say. thats why i nod. and just nod sometimes.